teachers' day

haha teachers' day performance was damn funny. not bad, 20 ppl from my class turned up. applaus please... sigh i just wasted anotehr day away. and i'm going for mfa talk tomorrow. which will take up another half day. i'm dying. help help.


joshua and i. pri sch classmates, jc classmates. our first photo.

fry

incidentally, i found this on my nitro compounds chem notes. oh no, it's the first time i read the notes.

A new drug called Fry is being used on women to render them helpless after smoking cigarettes contaminated with phencyclidine which causes blurred or impaired vision, short-term memory loss and a headache the day after.

Tsk tsk...

i believe

todayy's the last day of formal lessons in english for me, ever! haha... after tomorrow, it'll be the start of prelims next week. den after prelims, there will be just paper checking, and soon, we'll be off on our own! in other words, there will not be anymore formal lessons! until after ns.. but lessons then will not be in english! haha oh well i'm thinking too much. sighh...
why do i feel so yi yi bu she about graduating? perhaps it's cuz i know that it'll be hard to keep in contact with my friends now. hmm i didn't feel such a way when i graduated from my secondary school. but that was probably cuz i was confident that even after graduation, even when all of us are separated in different jcs, we'll still be able to keep in contact. oh yes, we still do. but now, after this year, we'll all be serving the country, which takes away all our time to socialize and stuff. damn sad. and after ns, all of us will probably be separated not in different jcs, but in different countries. how, then, are we going to keep in contact?
i guess i should make use of the remaining time to be nice to all my friends, so that, if today were the last day we see each other, i won't regret it, cuz i've done my best as a friend.

夏祭り

よぉよお！久しぶりに日本語でねぇ・・
昨日年一回の夏祭りに行ったぜ！毎年の同じく楽しかったっぜ。今回は四回目だけど、毎年違う友達と行ったのね。初めて行ったのは中三の時で、やっぱりはじめてだったからこそ祭りの飾りとかに驚かされたね。中四のときも行った。そして、去年日本人のポーザの僕らは一緒に参った。昨日は後輩と一緒。違う友達とはもちろん、それぞれの楽しみがあった。
茶道部の生徒さんにも会ったけど、名前は忘れちゃって、挨拶されてもどうやって相槌を打てればいいかわからなくて・・・ｘ＿ｘ
今度も相変わらず、盆踊りをした！皆はセンターステージを囲んで円の形をして踊るなんてすばらしいといつも思ってるよ。四年も行ったけど、今回は初めてステージに上がって踊った！やった！それで、日本人会の高橋先生たちと一緒に踊った！何にもましてうれしかったのはある先生に、写真を渡すので後で会おうって言われたから、祭りが終わったらステージの下で会った。チンゲイーパレードの写真を渡すときまた言われた、I expected to meet you here.訳せば、ここで君と会うだろうって知ってて写真を持ってきたっていう。つまり、僕は案の定、祭りに来た。別に何もないことですが、なんかうれしかったよ、こう言われて。だから、祭りに来るのは絶対後悔しない！その後僕は思ったんだけど、もし僕は来なかったら、あの先生に会えなくて失望させるだろうな。
それから、来年またチンゲイーパレードの参加してくださいって言われた。もちろん参加したいけど、来年から軍隊に入っちゃって、最初の二ヶ月はそんな暇ないだろうなあ・・残念だなあ・・先生に言いたかったけど、うっかり忘れちゃって・・まあ、またいつかきっと参加するから、待っててね！

snag

oh no i'm stuck writing my testimonial write up. i don't know whether i should write what i really feel, even though i'm afraid my true feelings may not be appropriate to be shown on the testimonial. I got damn emo writing the testimonial writeup cuz i'm required to write lots of stuff about my dreams n stuff like that.
i wrote some stuff, and realized it was too emo, so i deleted them and rephrased them in a nicer way, but i feel that the original meaning that i wanted to convey was missing.
For example: How do you see yourself in 5 years? 10 years?
I see myself studying/doing something that I like, in somewhere where my heart really lies, like Japan.
My tutor will probably go "wth?!"
OR If you can choose again, would you still come to RJC? Same subject combi? Why?
Yes, because the only reason for me coming to RJC was to take Japanese at Alevels. I took a bold decision of separating from my good friends from my secondary school, to come to RJC alone, to study Japanese, but I never regretted it. Therefore, if I can choose again, I will still come to RJC for the same purpose.
My tutor will probably show this to the principal and then expel me.

and so, what should i do???

spin-spin coupling

today was a mugging day. everyone was happy.
oh gosh the pairs of couples in our school has increased beyond what i have imagined. i see so many couples mugging in the library today, some i never knew/expected them to be together. oh gosh this is scary. i must buck up, in both contexts. but then again, in order for me to see all these mugger-couples, i must be in the library myself. so yes, i was in the library! yay. how happy. i've found a nice spot to study in the library, where i can see sunset! damn cooool. studying has never been so fun. haha argh i'm talking crap. alright that's all for now. shall update more next time.

Owning

today's day at school was as mundane as ever. but oh well.. i guess everyone's settling down into the mugging mode. hmm one thing that keeps bothering me, and i shall clarify it soon. yup, anywayy, everyone's talking about applying to US universities. and my CT has even typed out a list of what he wants us to write to him if we want him to recommend us to the Universities. But, what about japan universities? I knoe it's quite obvious that few ppl from rj, or singapore, will actually apply to japan universities. but what am i supposed to do? I don't want to leave everything till last minute, and then i'll have to forsake my dreams.

anywayy, today we recieved a handbook about emergency....(can't remember the full name cuz i left it in school anyway), u noe those kinda handbooks which are so important yet no one reads them seriously. haa... and there was this whole portion of the book that teaches u what to do when u see possible bioterrorism threats. hoho, if one day, the handbook comes in handy, who must u thank? ------ my pw group! hahaha cuz we suggested in our written report that we should distribute handbooks to students warning them about the dangers of bioterrorism, and also what to do in times of emergency. haha if one day the handbook comes in handy, they should correct my pw grade from band2 to band1! i save the world!

まあ・・・・

oh sian~... i was typing an entry yesterday but suddenly i lost the mood of blogging so i stopped. haha. sigh. the school's becoming quieter and quieter everyday. perhaps it's the time when everyone starts to study. sad case. i mean, just look at the library everyday after school. it's like OG having the great singapore sale. u can see bags filling up the empty spaces outside the library. and almost every single table in the library is occupied. scaryy... and i realized everyone's lost the smiles on their faces. looking at those glum faces really make me feel sad. i guess the mood will only liven up after alevels, or maybe, after prelims. sad caseeee...

anywayy i just realized i'm going to die for chem. i just tried the mcq for chem prelims 2002. and tada. i got 15/40! hahaha... wah die maan.. how am i going to pass with this kinda grades? let alone A... oh well. now i'm hoping that there's somethign wrong with the answers cuz there were a few questions which i thought i was right, but ended up wrong. but still, even if i get those questiosn right, i'll barely pass the mcq. oh no... how am i going to score like fullmarks for the other sections to make up for this loss. DIE...

and now i'm facing with two big problems. one is jap oral! there's mock oral in two weeks time and i don't even have my script yet~! oh no. i need to think of wad to write, QUICK. if not i'll just die horriblyyyyy..... n the second problem is ORGANIC CHEM. arghhhhh.... it's such a big topic and i really regret not mugging it bit by bit when we are learning it last yr n this yr. and now, it's one whole chunk of rubbish to stuff it into my brain! ahh...die die... help help.

ここで終わるんだ

いろいろ迷ったが、結局結論は出てきてない・・今年が終わったら、友達も一斉に消えてしまうかな。僕を伴って歩いていく人はいないだろうか。なんか寂しく感じてる・・せっかく仲良くしようとしたんだけど、その友情は最後にどうなるんだろう。そして、また新たな世界に入っちゃうのかなぁ。それから改めて友達を探してたくましい友情を立てる。そしてその時代はいつか終点に着くから、その循環は絶えずに続いていく。
恋だって同じだろう。周りの恋人たちは今年が終わるにつれて、愛情は日々薄くなってくるだろうか。男性は軍隊に入る一方で、女性は大学に進む。そして否応なしに分かれちゃうのだろう。今の仲間と連絡が取り合えたらいいけど、そうでなければ一生なくしちゃうんだろう。だから僕は恐れてる。恋は必ずしもうまく行くわけじゃないから。たとえうまくいっても、今年が終わるとそのストーリも終わっちゃう。その時は残念に思うしかないんだ。
友達がそばにいてくれるうちに、写真、手紙やメッセージは保存しといてる。その後はどうなるにもかかわらず、その記憶は大事にするから。いつかまた振り返るときはその保存しといた記憶を引き起こすものを何度も何度も繰り返して読むだけだ。
まあ、とりあえず、控えてる試験を頑張らないとね・・

死んじゃうんだ

ああああああああああああああああああああ・・・・・死んじゃう！プリムズは後一ヶ月始まるのに、今何もできなくなっちゃったみたいだぁ！何で今頃学んだことはすべて頭から消えちゃってるかな。集中しなきゃ！頑張らなきゃ！なぁんで君のことばっかり考えてんだよ！そんなどころじゃねぇからなあ！葬式の準備してくれぇ！

世界にひとつだけの花

一週間に日本人が二回来た。どっちも関西地方からのお客さんだけど、今度は大阪からのだ。シンガポールには五日しか泊まらないけれど、きっと楽しかったと思うよ。日本人の四日目にラッフルーズ高校に来た。四十人を及ぶ生徒たちと十人ぐらいの先生方が訪ねてきました。学校はちょうど建国記念日の祝いとしてスポーツカニバールを催していたから、学校のどこでも生き生きした雰囲気だった。僕も初めて、こんな学校を見た。すばらしい。サッカー、バスケットボール、ネットボール、ハンドボール、フローボール、ラグビなどなどの試合が行われていた。ラッフルーズの生徒はスポーツだって何でもできるみたいなあ。さすがなラッフルーズ。そして、今度僕は普通と違って、日本人の生徒ではなく、日本人の先生方に学校を案内してあげました。それもなんか初めてやったので、新しい経験だった。砕けた話ばっかりではなく、敬語を使ってまじめな話題をしゃべった。まあ、本当に辛い一日だったんで、さっき昼寝もしたけど、頭が働けないほど疲れてる。で、日本語も喋れなくなっちゃった。もちろん書くこともできなくなっちゃった。じゃ残りは英語で打つね。

so basically, the japs from osaka came to singapore, and stopped by our school for a day for some activity with our interact club. being the super-extra nihonjin no pouza we are, (ok, i am), we volunteered to help out in the whole event. this time, i wasn't in charge of the jap students, even though there were plenty of them. instead, i was together with the interact chair, melody and yvonne who entertained the big shots from japan. (oh not forgetting sohee amanda and shuyu who came to help out!)WOAH, stressful sia... but no really, they were nice nice ppl. at the start, it was quite awkward cuz they thought we couldn't speak jap. and the language barrier itself would destroy the whole purpose of the visit. luCkily, they came to the right school! we have plentiful supply of nihonjin no nisemonos around who would gladly volunteer to guide them around. so the whole thing started, we brought the teachers to GO, den around the school. well really, i haven't felt so, hmm excited with all the big shots around. i was afraid of slipping some too-casual or wrong words out of my mouth. so it was very jin3shen4 while handling with them. hmm handling with them doesn't sound very nice. entertaining them.

now i realized how difficult it is to use keigo in real life. it sounds pretty simple just memorizing all the keigo verbs and stuff, but when it comes to a real life situation and facing a jap who is old enough to be your father, ur tongue starts getting tied and ur brain stops working. even as i TRIED to spit the keigo out, i paused every moment to check whether it's grammatically correct. but that was at the start, as time passes by, we felt closer to them. and we started throwing our keigos away, and kept to masu-forms. and as time passes by again, we started getting tired and started using all the wrong jap. argh. anywayyy, it was really fun bringing them around, and when we returned to the GO, it was talking time! two very nice teachers, three rather, came to chat with us. so furendori! ahh so fun so fun. i never felt so fun talking to adults. haha, perhaps it was my first time talking to so many adult strangers. but it was a really good feeling. i felt GROWN-UP! we talked about SERIOUS stuff. hahaha, not exactly, but things that concern our future! like wad we want to do in future, and stuff like that. although it's not the first time i talk about such stuff, i still feel the adrenaline everytime i do so. it makes me look forward to my future, but at the same time, it makes me worry cuz when i try and fast-forward my life and see wad happens in ten(ok lar, five) years time, i don't see anything! ok i take that back, i see something. but i keep feeling i may not be able to achieve wad i see. oh well, i'm a paranoid person.

so anyway, we talked and talked. and the moment i waited for so long came! the two teachers gave me their namecards! oh maan, i felt so, so, so, so ahh.... happy. haha. ok my vocab sux. someone help me substitute that word. anywayy, ohh and yvonne was so jealous cuz her dream of marrying a rich man's son is being jeopardized, by ME. hahaha. and she says that it's cuz japs prefer guys to girls. is that true? hmmmm.. oh well oh well...

so after the visit to our sch, they took a bus to j8, which took longer than the time we walked there. haha.. so we were split into groups and went separate ways for lunch. ohh actually my job was supposed to be done in school, before they leave for j8. but somehow, we decided to continue being extra by following them for lunch. so being groupless, i once again joined the league of superpowers, ie the jap teachers for lunch. wow wow damn damn damn cool. i really felt like an adult. haha. so we chatted and chatted, oh and i brought one of the teachers to cristofori to look for guitars. so cool!! but the food that we ordered came SO late. omg the japs must be furious with the lousy singapore service! OOPS, it's national day tomorrow. i should sound nicer. the japs must be amused by the singapore service. (ok it doesn't change much). but anywayyy, the last dish came like one hour later. oh man. terribly terrible.

ok this entry's getting a bit long. i should summarize. after lunch we went to henderson children society! yay, it's not my first time there. and i recognize some of the kids there! but sadly, none of them remembers me, except one. oh but never mind! cuz melody says that she goes there every week for tutoring, and the girl couldn't remember her. hahaha. ok that's damn funny. so i shouldn't feel sad that they don't remember me since the last time i went was last yr. ohh and actually, my job was supposed to end at the lunch, but somehow, we decided to continue being really extra and followed them to henderson. oh well. henderson was fun. but the kids were havoc. really havoc. it's not humanely possible to get everyone of them on their butts. but anywayy, the japs sang for us a song! and that is, sekai ni hitotsu dake no hana! yay the end~~~

promethean ceremony

"u should sleep more" -annonymous

Oh gosh how do u spell promethean ceremony? haha anywayy, time flies. i still remember the promethean ceremony last year where christelle (last yr's jap club chairperson) handed over to me. oh well, looking back on what i've done, i really wonder whether i've done my job well. haha. anywayy, one year has passed and it's my turn to hand over now. i tink i'll miss my post as the chairperson. oh well, i admit i really feel good when ppl call me buchou, or president. haha all the glory and stuff, even though i may not deserve all these. now that i've transformed from a buchou to a moto-buchou, i need to find another identity. i realized that the no. of ppl who knoe me are more than i knoe, cuz they recognize me as the jap club pres, for some reason.

anyway, back to the first line! something interesting happened during the promethean ceremony rehearsal! haha, as i was talking to chongkeat and elsie, there was this other unknown j1 girl who was joining in the conversation too. den suddenly, out of the blue, the girl told me, "u should sleep more." taken aback by such a sudden and random question, i huh-ed back. she repeated it.
and den i replied, "oh cuz of eyebags?"
and she said, "u noe, ur eyes are very pretty....."
haha omg i was stunned as she continued, "ur eyes are so pretty, but ur eyebags spoil them.." (or something to that extent)

okay. haha shit i get very happy when ppl praise me. okayy that's about it. tada. time to eat dinner.

余裕のよっちゃん

やっぱ日本人の話の続きィだぁ。昨日はいっしょー?食事をしてたぁ。なんかさ、余裕のことしてるかなあって思ってんだけどな。どーかな・・放課後、スグ行かなかったが、ミンジェンは勉強ーしたいって言ってから、待ってあげよーかぁって思ったんだけど、結局待たずに一人で行った。どこへ行ったという話しだけど、まずは高島屋でカイモノをしてた。皆はほとんど女性だから、まあしょーがなくてさ。そしてぇ、いよいよ夕飯の時間だったのでファーイストプラザーですること?したー。あっちのチキンライスが有名だって僕は始めて聞いたんだけど、本当にうまかったなぁ。それで日本人としゃべったりした。

一緒に喋ったのは応援隊のこの二人だった。（マサ子とユリ子）
　なんかアニメと漫画に詳しそーだったよね。ロビンとずっーとその話ばっかり喋ってた。まあ僕はあんまり見ないからさ、ついていけないっていう感じかな。食事後はまた買い物だったぁ。いやだっていえないけれど、たぶん皆疲れていてさ、話すぐらいの力すらなくしちゃった。デパートをぐるぐる回って、何も買わずにぶらぶらしてた。本当に疲れそうだったなあ。それからワッフルーズも食べた。いよいよ九時になって、帰る道で神戸高校の校長先生ともう一人の先生に会った。ほんとーにグーゼンだったなあ。
校長先生はなんかロビンと親しそーで、いいなあと僕は羨ましんで思った。将来のことですが、もし日本に留学できれば、友達がたくさんいるといいねぇ。帰ったらもう遅かったし、スゴク疲れてたし、ぐっすりと寝ちゃった。

そして、今日の送別会。余裕のよっちゃんの僕らはまた現れた。数学の講義があったから送別会のパフォーマンスは最後のしか見えなかった。残念だったな。余裕の僕らなのに、写真は撮った。蔡君の親戚（まじで？！）ミズエちゃん、ユキちゃんともう一人（ごめんっ！名前知らん！）

日本人！

今日、神戸高校から日本人の生徒がやっと来た！一年間というもの、会わなかったので、なんかわくわくしてたよ！僕らはホストじゃないのに、たくさんのことを勝手に決めちゃって悪かったなあと思う。すみません！でも、本当に反射的な反応というか、日本人が来たとたん、みんなは止まらなくなるほど喋っちゃう！＾O＾明日は一緒に食事をする予定だ。楽しみ！まあ、余裕のよっちゃンにならないようにね。。。