smile once more

have u ever felt that you have forgotten how it is like to smile, to get angry, to cry? have u ever felt that you have lost all the emotions a normal being is entitled to? i've found a cure to it, and just re-assured that soccer is it! having lost my emotions for a long long time, having not get worked-up over something for a long long time, i finally rediscovered my ability to scream and shout in frustration, in despair, in exasperation. Everytime i watch soccer, especially in a match where i want a particular team to win, i feel all my emotions pouring out. last night, while watching the champion's league match between arsenal and real madrid, i could feel the exasperation. i can never find this feeling anywhere else. i can never get this worked up over something that is going on thousands of miles away, and something that i cannot do anything about to change it. but i still inevitably show the weaker side of me.

it was rather disappointing to see Real Madrid crash out of the Champion's league, but it was more disappointing to see such a lacklustre effort put up by them. this morning's match could be the last match i'll be watching, cuz soon, i'll be locked up in some forbidden island to the east of singapore.

i still remember four years ago, when we were in japan, we saw thousands of people crying on the night of 18th june, when japan was eventually knocked out of the world cup by turkey. it was one of those nights i won't forget. and it goes to show once again that soccer brings tears to even the toughest men on earth. Or should i say passion? although i probably won't be able to catch the japan national team in action in this year;s world cup, i swear i will be behind them again, four years later, to go through everything with them, to show once again, through our teary eyes, how passion brings emotions, and creates emotions out of a person who has once lost all of his.