epilogue

RJ has a japanese food stall, Subway and an ATM machine. wow... i was especially amazed by the ATM machine. haha and robin's exaggerated reaction when he saw it. amazing amazing stuff. soon we'll have pool and arcade in RJ.

but anyway, when i went bAck to collect results yesterday, i met many ppl. Oh well, not that i know many ppl, but i met most of those ppl whom i know. Thankfully most of them still recognize, or rather see me as a friend and at least smile at me. Of course there were a few others who don't know me anymore. I'm really glad that most of my juniors still remember me, and bothered to come forward to talk to, or at least sms me. The hostility I expected wasn't to be seen, which was truly something that comforts me. I enjoyed all the smiles and happiness and friendliness that day, even though it only lasted the few hours i was there, and a few hours later, now, everything's been reverted to normal- nobody to sms, no one to talk to online and blah blah blah.

I thought of this issue for very long and once, i came out with an explanation to solve my doubts. I concluded that everyone has their own lives and circle of best friends; it just happened that I'm not in any of them. I might have become a little more optimistic about it now, but everything i turn around to see nothing but my shadow, i'll ruminate about this funny theory and think, "maybe it's true after all."

My angel once told me, "we should be grateful that our lives crossed. our fate might not last for the rest of our lives, we might not stay as friends forever, but it'd be enough. We might eventually become mere passers-by of each other's lives, crossing and staying at each other's lives just for a brief moment."
I know it's true, but i never expected it to be especially true in my life, as i see friends come, friends go. Sometimes i regret not treating them better after they left, sometimes i'm glad i've done my best as a friend, but as they leave eventually, i'll always be questioning my real view of friendship, and whether they should have deserved slightly more than the "best" which i thought i had given.

I'd like to bring out a quote by myself four years ago. it was nothing more than a casual remark then, but i feel it time and time again, its true meaning, and even till now, i get touched by the immense emotions involved in the short phrase.

"This is the end of our story, but the epilogue shall continue forever."
Four years ago, when we left Japan in tears, that was exactly what was in my mind, and which was what became my motivation to do miracles, and to grow stronger. Now, all of us have our own lives and we have moved on since then. But all of us have, in one way or another, been affected by the whole "story". and many of us are fighting on in this epilogue of the "story". and so we'll be fighting on forever in this never-ending epilogue.