commissioning

joint term hasn't been as easy as i thought. doing rehearsals everyday is more mentally and physically tiring than what everyone thought. but we're almost there. another three more days. i guess this is one of the significant moments of my life, and probably the only one in my army life. it's not just a promotion in rank, but also a gain in responsibility, and increase of demands in the future, even beyond army. i look forward to the challenges that i'll face after this saturday. Not physical challenges though, as i've had enough of them, but more mind-boggling tasks, so that when i finally ord, i'll at least have some experience in work-life and will not be disadvantaged when juxtaposed with someone else.

AND, still no comms ball date. after discussing some of my coursemates, i realized i'm not the only one who is stuck in this dilemma of deciding who to ask. It's not that i have no female acquaintances, but there are several factors i need to consider.
firstly the compatability of us. i figured it'll be quite weird if two people of totally different characters were to go out for such an event. awkward situations will arise too, as there will be a breakdown in communication. the relationship between the two ppl shouldn't be ambiguous too so as avoid awkwardness when asked the relationship.
As such, after asking the ppl i have in mind, and being rejected by them, i thought that it'll be better to ask someone i totally do not know, than to ask someone whom i'm not very familiar with. the reason is clear. going for a dinner with someone i completely do not know, there's no obligation to develop this friendship should any misunderstandings or mismatch in character take place. on the other hand, if i were to go for this dinner with someone i'm not familiar with, either our friendship deepens, or things turn sour or awkward. moreover, if misunderstandings were to arise, it will be difficult to escape as this friendship already exists. oh well, i look forward to my unknown blind date, and hopefully things will turn out fine and i won't waste my $300.

by the way, my relatives, including my family, think that i have many female friends. disappointingly, it's the direct opposite.